Someone once told me, "life is too short...to stay sad."

There will always be these consistent crossroads in your life. Sometimes I can take them for possible opportunities to come, but other times they distort my plans and make a mess of my mind. I am trapped. I suppose that's the simplest way to put it.
I'm going to be 26 next month, and career wise, I've accomplished nothing. I went to college hoping that after I could strive for better things. Sadly I found myself being the receptionist or bored retail girl, who just visualized her passions. If someone asked me to lay out everything that would be considered my "dream job," I wouldn't know how to complete the list. If you asked me before my college depression kicked in, I would have said dance or performing - easily. That was something that always made me feel effervescent. Today I am lost. I'm not sure what I want to be or what I want to do specifically. I do know that I want to find a town or city that make me want to wake up every morning and see the sun. I know it's time to separate myself from my mother - to a certain degree. Today is a day for me to begin starting over. All the doors are open and I can't decide which one to walk through. How easy is it to say, screw what society wants of you, screw money, and just GO. Go with little direction and little knowledge of what may happen. Fall flat on your face and try to get back up again, still with some pride. FEAR...damn you fear. The fear in others leaks onto me as well, and I walk around daily with it draining down my throat. Nothing comes on a silver platter...nothing comes easy. I know all this...I just can't overcome my fear and let go. It's more than time, it's the best time. Otherwise I will remain lying in bed feeling alone and envisioning a better life.