"I can't offer you a legally binding union...."

This evening I went to see Moonrise Kingdom. The film was absolutely brilliant. I'm never disappointed in Wes Anderson, and this time I felt his imagination was truly magical. Some people may just call it "cute," because of the cast being mainly children, and Anderson takes you on a youthful adventure. However, I found it so easy to relate to and I was completely engrossed emotionally . It touched my heart and made me laugh. It gave me an old feeling of what it's like to be in love, and think only of the love you're in... I must honestly say that it has been a few years since I've felt that maddening, can't live without you, kind of love. A German man swept me off my feet years back. There was truly that constant feeling of happiness. I wouldn't dare share the reasons it didn't work out (none of which is negative), but I do know that I miss that kind of love. Our relationship reminded me of Moonrise Kingdom. We would do anything and everything to attempt to be together (mainly in the same country, haha). I suppose I've learned to never doubt what I feel. Even if it's a minute tickle in your gut that comes frequently. I believe we all question our emotions and intentions from time to time; however, if it's constant, then it's not very reassuring you're on the right path. In my case I believe my disease gave me a weakness when I was first diagnosed. I felt my self-worth deplete. There was no way I could be loved, when I struggled loving myself. I began a new life filled with medication, hospitals, doctors, and constant side effects. I wanted to be loved...even if I didn't love equally back; even if I questioned my love, and even if I felt my life was going in an odd direction. This was my mistake: not loving myself. I know that mistakes are something to grow and learn from...move forward. I know now that I don't need to settle. I don't need to let a disease make me feel like no one will love me. I'm not trying to make this sound like a sappy, sad blog. I'm more excited that Moonrise Kingdom brought me that wonderful feeling of HOPE FOR LOVE! I may have ignored all the signs before, but from here on I will value what I know I deserve. Wouldn't that be wonderful to have that childlike first love again? I look at all my great friends who are happily in relationships and marriages. I can honestly say that I've always valued my friends decisions. No one is perfect, and even the ones who didn't work out were special at one time. I'm even hopeful for my friends who are still searching for that great love. Are you throwing up yet? I know that those I love deserve the ultimate love from a partner. If you haven't seen this film, get out there and see it. There was something inspiring about a cast full of children, and the way Anderson brought maturity to their characters. It just made my freaking day!

Cousin Ben (to Suzy and Sam): "I can't offer you a legally binding union. It won't hold up in the state, the county or frankly any courtroom in the world due to your age, lack of license and failure to get parental consent. But, the ritual does carry a very important moral weight within yourselves. You can't enter into this lightly. Look into my eyes: Do you love each other?" Suzy: "Yes, we do." Cousin Ben: "Think about what I'm saying, are you sure you're ready for this?" Suzy: "Yes, we are." Cousin Ben: "They're not listening to me. Let me rephrase it..." Suzy: "We're in a hurry." Cousin Ben: "Are you chewing...spit out the gum sister. In fact everybody." (Everyone spits out gum) "I don't like the snappy attitude. This is the most important decision you've made in your lives. Go over by that trampoline and talk it through before you give me another quick answer."